alice lee - lyrics

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Quicksand EP

Could This Be Love?
Not An Exit
Quicksand
Running Into Walls

The Art of Forgetting +new!+

The Choice
Question
Someday
Relapse
Velocette
Like Rain

Otherwords

Where Are You My Love? +new!+
L'insomnie
Friendly Fire
A New Bruise
I Breathe
No Idea

Could This Be Love?

The world is a sea that I'm unwilling to swim
Constantly beckoning me to dive in, to dive in
Drowning by numbers and painting by fact
The catch that I draw will sate me for now so I don't have to act

Are you the best that I can do
Because I'm terrified of never
I will hold fast onto you
If not for now, then forever

Could this be love?

Living with you, I'm sailing away
From all of the pain that I'd like to refrain
From repeating again
Compromise is a promise that pledges not to grieve
For all the mistakes that you never make
It's such bliss to be deceived

Are you the one, my sweet,
To save me from my resolution
To find the one who'll make me cry
Just keep me safe and sedated

Could this be love?

Are you the one who'll make me cry
Conspirator to my confession
Are these the ties that bind or choke
In my last bid for forever

Could this be love?

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Not An Exit

Open my box baby
And take a look inside
Stick your head in and
I'll swallow you alive

You step into rule
Like a blood-earned birthright
Before you venture further, baby
Better think twice

You claim invincibility is your key
Better think twice before you mess with me

Pass the buck can't resist
As you strip my voice
Fuck me blind and
You leave me without a choice

Shoulda checked more closely
When you left me for dead
Think twice before
You decide to fuck with my head

Watch me fly reborn as they drag you down
See the blade of choice as it comes around

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Quicksand

silent streams of conversation
always tumbling and converging
making contact, sometimes making sense
cacophony and harmony
in honesty and pretense

but hands-on healing is what I'm needing
when you're kneeling
giving yourself to me in pieces
in pieces day by day
we're killing each other in weird little ways

only to find the lost and loved
no longer to be despised
it's less easily disguised
and better deserved by the easily satisfied

afraid in water
but lonelier on land
I am sinking
sinking in your quicksand

summer stronger as it falls around me
what can I do
when I leave my heart at the door
when I thought I had left it with you

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Running Into Walls

Abandoned again, my mind goes places
That I know you'd never go
My latent jealousy like a disease I can't
Catch my septic dreams awake

Till my patience hits the floor
To take you in once more
And I start to doubt you again
Where do you start and when will it end

Hoping to abstain from my basest notions
Fate saves me draining me from myself
I string you up like a fake piñata
I take my shots and watch
The pieces fall out, they taste

Tired, tired and bittersweet
I drop the keys and run
I'm running into walls
I'm running out of time
I'm running from a crime I can't commit

Come up for air
You'll be fine
Smell my shatteredness
Open up and smile
I smoke you up
And I ash you out

Turn my back
And I burn you alive

Open up and smile…

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The Choice

The choice is yours
To escape this miracle
To disappear the damage done
'Cause when the ceiling hits the sky

All you can do is fall
And do nothing

How do you know when it's over?
How do you know when it's begun?
When the stakes are high and the lines are drawn
You anticipate the battle won

How do I get you to listen?
How do I get you to understand?
I never tried to contain you
With a regret or demand

But all you can do is fall
(and I can't catch you this time)
And do nothing

Question

Barebones of an afternoon
Reflections in a daydream
I was lost when I found you
How will I be now?

Losing my mind sometimes
The city can beat you down
But somehow I can handle it
Knowing you're around

How will I be now?

A contradiction in essence
Wildness in restraint
Heavier than fiction
Dreaming wide awake

'Cause your weakness is my strength
'Cause I can't go this alone
Struggling to find the truth of you
On the wall, by candlelight
Over the phone

How will I be now?

Disconnected we are islands
And it scares me sometimes
I was drifting when I found you
How will I be now?

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Someday

Bells on my fingers, sand in my toes
I keep walking and talking and nobody knows
The sound of wonder living my dreams
Reality a wake-up call where nothing's what it seems

But you somehow know this language that I speak
And all my heart will come to seek someday

I'm tired of travelling without a net
I want to place my feet back firmly on the ground
And you are so my antidote
The walking wounded, a human lost and found

And my good sense tells me to run
But something compels me to stay
And find out where this road will lead someday

The line gets drawn, the line gets crossed
It's hard to see the places where it starts and ends
And so I'll wait here a little while
Then the girl that set you straight will walk out with a smile

Knowing full well we'll get it right
And you'll finally figure it out
And everything will come to light someday

©2003, Alice Lee. All rights reserved.

Relapse

Enveloped beauty seeps thru the whispers in his skin
I am hollow but will I be whole again?
Moving through moments I feel his breath and remember when
I was drunk with your airs and attestations
Would we meet again?
Would we?

Seeing things take place all over again
Would the mistakes repeat when foreknowledge stalls
And the hurting begins?
Incoherence is my currency to trade
With the speechlessness that you bear
Would we trade anyway, anywhere?
Would we?

Relapse, same damn mistake
It's a vicious circle I'm unwilling to break

©2003, Alice Lee. All rights reserved.

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Velocette

Am I learning you every day?
Little lessons in every way
Two steps forward, three steps back
You make up for what I lack

Together we can take up the slack
Three steps forward, two steps back
I have to give
To take these risks
You have to live

Together we can take up the slack
Three steps forward, two steps back
Day by day, year by year
You can change
I'll still be here

Together day by day

©2003, Alice Lee. All rights reserved.

Like Rain

Kind of like rain when it falls thru the cracks
Kind of like the air that escapes when your head falls back
The space between us alive with regret
The silence between sentences we don't have to say

We've handwritten our futures
It's only destiny in hindsight
It's only the past that make makes sense
A common logic in the present tense

Kind of like rain

A hand moving backwards over past scripts
Over everything that's been done and said
Our histories of blood, promises, and spit
A sacred text unwritten and unread
As we lose our minds,
Lose our bodies,
Lose our hearts.
As we fail to take heed,
Fail to listen,
Fail to be smart.

Kind of like rain

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Where Are You My Love?

Summer's gone away along with you
This was something new -
was it ever really true?
And I wonder where are you my love?

I look to brighter days to kill the ache
To take me away from day to empty day
And I wonder where are you my love?

I see the Southern star
Are you looking at it too?
Stars brought me to you
And there was nothing I could do

I'm on the other side of you
Under a blanket of blue
Things where we left it
Weren't really where I meant it
And I wonder where are you my love?

So many things
We could have said
We could have tried
Instead we laughed and we lied
So much I could have cried
And I wonder did you my love?

Sometimes what you think are mistakes is really fate
They're really chances we all have to take
And we're wiser now, aren't we my love?

I see the Southern star
Are you looking at it too
It's bringing me to you
And there is nothing I can do

These ends we left dangling now that we're apart
Are neatly tied in a bow wrapped around my heart
And I wonder where are you my love?

©2003, Alice Lee. All rights reserved.

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L'insomnie

Dans l'obscur de la nuit
Dans le chaleur de la nuit
Je t'attends

Je m'ouvre comme une fleur
Au cours d'une heure
Après toi

Après toi je ne peux pas reposer
Après toi

Je meurs un peu chaque fois
À cause de toi
Tes baisers je me garde comme mes blessures
Après toi

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Friendly Fire

Between the rightness and the wrongness of each situation
I can almost resign myself
And cancel the debts of my very own creation
But this jigsaw framework won't let us rest

Bypass the situational stalemate
I can't touch your scars but I can feel them
Under glass for an emergency you won't let yourself break
My lips never part but to conceal them

I don't know what to do
When you pass right through me
Never stop to wonder why
When with you I can't even try

Fortune's fools are the luckiest losers in the world
When she kicks them in the head and runs away
Loved by the shrapnel
Wondering if the friendly fire in your eyes
Is telling me to leave or entreating me to stay

I don't know what to do
When you pass right through me
You made me think that I could fly
But with you I can't even try
Can't even try

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A New Bruise

"There is a certain relief in change, even though it be from bad to worse; as I have found...
that it is often a comfort to shift one's position and be bruised in a new place." - Washington Irving

Time colors bloodstains as they
Dry on this telescoping lens
Ever wonder what it's like seeing things
Through my eyes
Ever pretend?

As I seek relief in change
I catch a glimpse of your face
And I want to be bruised in a new place

You try to find a way to rescue me
W/o causing anyone injury
But it's no use
as long as we dissolve the things we never said
In the habit of excuse

To take these moments
As they last
Let's burn down the trappings
And lose the past where it belongs

As I seek relief in what's strange
I catch a glimpse of your face
And I want to be bruised in a new place

As I seek relief in change
As I seek comfort in what's strange
I catch a glimpse of your face
Don't want to wear that same dress
Don't want to take anyone's place
I just want to be bruised in a new place

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I Breathe

Learning another tune
Cadence into rhyme
Texture into sound
Undo the ties that bind
As the come back around

Swallowed in the wake
Living in fragments
And learning how to laugh
Over an open flame
I forget your name

And everybody's moving but I'm standing still
And everybody's moving but I'm standing still
Je ne peux pas me souvenir à t'oublier
And everybody's moving but I'm standing still

and I am not afraid to bleed
I don't shy from disaster
But I feel the hollow left
From your crash landing
It carved me inside
A mile wide
I wear it like a smile
It becomes a part of me

And the not you of me is what I bleed
And the not you of me is what I need
Je ne peux pas me souvenir à t'oublier
And the not you of me is what I breathe

I breathe…

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No Idea

I went to the ocean, said hello
She asked me where and how I'd been
I said to the city, and I don't know
'cause I think I'm losing a friend

It's always a mystery how hope
Can sometimes lead you astray
Seeking tomorrow's promises and
Borrowed pleasures today

Down to the gentle chaos and reprobate burn
Of losing yourself in someone else and
Finding no return
Right now…

It's best to go slowly when
Passing through the minefields of our hearts
Vanquishing fire that threatens
to overtake us before it starts
For our pasts and our futures
We cannot look to the stars
Fruits of our impulsions
Can only be found in our scars

Searching through the fallout
Trying hard to find reasons why
Learning how to fall before you can fly
So fly….

You must fall before you fly

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